I guess I am new to this blogging business. I must admit that it feels kind of strange, funny and maybe a little familiar. I used to write my rants and raves, poems, journal entries, prayers, etc... all the time. It seems as though I have convinced myself that I am to busy for that non-sense anymore. Well I think that having a little baby girl has changed all that backwards thinking. I'm afraid that at some point along the way I quit feeling and experiencing things like I used to. I can't pinpoint anything that would have caused this (probably just my laziness.) I used to be the guy with the camera or video camera to my eye all the time. I used to make stupid videos. I miss these things. I think that a combination of Joss, Keri Jo, Lauren & Jack, Clay & Emily, Brad & Jenny, and Chris & April have made want these things again. My "Little Trial Blaiser" (This is what I find myself calling Joss) has made me want to get my a*^ in gear as far as being a father and a husband.
I remember growing up there were those parents that were respected, revered, and then there were the ones that were either dead-beats or worse just kind of there. I would like to be the respected father, the one the my kids respect and the one that my kids friends look up to. - Seeing Keri Jo with little trail blaiser has shown me so much. I can not comprehend what it must be like to be a mother. It seems that she gets these super human bursts of energy in the middle of the night when all of the sudden she just springs out of bed as if she had not been asleep for 4 hours and not gotten 3 hours of sleep the night before. I am so so proud of her. I want to be a better husband. - Then there is Lauren & Jack. They will be watching Joss for us. They make me want to cherish this life more than I do right now and live life like it could be over any day. Lauren has gone through great tragedy and seeing the poise and wisdom that she has is inspiring. - Clay & Emily so good to hang out with them again. I have to admit that starting this blogging thing spawns from them. Keri & I are constantly saying that we need to take more pictures like Clay and Emily. I love the wall of 8x10 pictures they have in their dining room. - Then there is Brad & Jenny. I really look up to this couple. I see the patience they have with each other and life. I am jealous of how purposeful they are. - Chris and April. Man I know where Chris is right now, wondering what life is going to be like in 6 months. I don't think that there is any way to prepare. I remember wondering will it be a boy or a girl? Will I be a good parent? How is that supposed to come out of there????
I guess that I am trying to thank all of our friends for being great examples.
Dude, I did not mean for this to get so long winded. I guess I just figured that if I did not type these things while I have been thinking of them they may never get said. I guess I will use this blog deal to let others in on what is going on in my head. That could get dangerous, I know.
I am tired and I don't know if any of this makes any sense but I guess that I'm not getting a grade and you don't have to read it. I think I'll like this blogging thing.
1 comment:
Hey Luke! THIS is AWESOME! I too am a journaler (is that a word?) & I'm thrilled to have the privelage to get to know you & your real-self a bit better thru the Camp Thorkildsen family blog. I hope you don't mind. As a fellow-rambler, lol, I find that rambling in my writing brings out some amazing realizations that were just lurking around in my mind! My true 'adventure' of course *grin* When I read this post I discovered a 'Luke' I couldn't have known otherwise. Our limited visits are such a drag! Distance & time is my worst enemy when it comes to being with my favorite (& pretty much the Only Family I have other than my own Farrer Clan) family members. I always dreamt that Terri & I would share our years on a daily basis & its my biggest saddest loss in life to have not had that for so long. SHE is my other half! And it feels wrong to be so far away from her (& the rest of the Camp's). Missing all of the everyday events, as well as, the not so everyday events was never what I wanted or planned or even imagined for our adult worlds. Anyway, I understand your writings slowing over time! I have volumns of Journals. It's never nonsense- you have left a legacy of your most personal insights. And any venue that makes it easier is worth the effort...so Blog Away! Then print it & add it too your journals. (I'll tell you a secret I haven't ever even told Terri- just before my surgery for removing a Tumor that I didn't know what the future would hold for me, I actually 'edited' some of my 'ramblings' never to be seen again! LOL! In other words, I didn't want my Mom to find some of my real questions & thoughts! *grin*)But,the privelage of getting to know the man that loves my Keri Jo is a real treat for me Luke. As I read your first post, my thoughts were, you are an amazingly thoughtfilled young man & I could see why Keri Jo loves you for the first time. I value that so much! I also aspired to be a 'respected' Mom, as opposed to the 'buddy' type Mom & in my opinion respect & love is much more important for a child to have in the long (long!) adventure of a Parent & Child. Darren is an awesome example of a wonderful Dad that is respected, loved, looked-up to, fun to hang out with, dependable no matter what the situation is he may be faced with & dedicated to what is right & good. When you wonder about all the 'if's' of what Life is or can be it shows you care & want to make sure that you fulfill all that Keri Jo & Joss need from a good Husband & Father ~ That IS Love! I'm excited for the journey you have in front of you along the side of an amazing woman & adorable baby that will continue to motivate you & direct your steps in life in everything you do. You're a wonderful young man that I'm glad to have in our little family. Long Distant Hugs to All 3 Of You! Sissy/Karen PS: You can call me either one :o)
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