I guess I am new to this blogging business. I must admit that it feels kind of strange, funny and maybe a little familiar. I used to write my rants and raves, poems, journal entries, prayers, etc... all the time. It seems as though I have convinced myself that I am to busy for that non-sense anymore. Well I think that having a little baby girl has changed all that backwards thinking. I'm afraid that at some point along the way I quit feeling and experiencing things like I used to. I can't pinpoint anything that would have caused this (probably just my laziness.) I used to be the guy with the camera or video camera to my eye all the time. I used to make stupid videos. I miss these things. I think that a combination of Joss, Keri Jo, Lauren & Jack, Clay & Emily, Brad & Jenny, and Chris & April have made want these things again. My "Little Trial Blaiser" (This is what I find myself calling Joss) has made me want to get my a*^ in gear as far as being a father and a husband.
I remember growing up there were those parents that were respected, revered, and then there were the ones that were either dead-beats or worse just kind of there. I would like to be the respected father, the one the my kids respect and the one that my kids friends look up to. - Seeing Keri Jo with little trail blaiser has shown me so much. I can not comprehend what it must be like to be a mother. It seems that she gets these super human bursts of energy in the middle of the night when all of the sudden she just springs out of bed as if she had not been asleep for 4 hours and not gotten 3 hours of sleep the night before. I am so so proud of her. I want to be a better husband. - Then there is Lauren & Jack. They will be watching Joss for us. They make me want to cherish this life more than I do right now and live life like it could be over any day. Lauren has gone through great tragedy and seeing the poise and wisdom that she has is inspiring. - Clay & Emily so good to hang out with them again. I have to admit that starting this blogging thing spawns from them. Keri & I are constantly saying that we need to take more pictures like Clay and Emily. I love the wall of 8x10 pictures they have in their dining room. - Then there is Brad & Jenny. I really look up to this couple. I see the patience they have with each other and life. I am jealous of how purposeful they are. - Chris and April. Man I know where Chris is right now, wondering what life is going to be like in 6 months. I don't think that there is any way to prepare. I remember wondering will it be a boy or a girl? Will I be a good parent? How is that supposed to come out of there????
I guess that I am trying to thank all of our friends for being great examples.
Dude, I did not mean for this to get so long winded. I guess I just figured that if I did not type these things while I have been thinking of them they may never get said. I guess I will use this blog deal to let others in on what is going on in my head. That could get dangerous, I know.
I am tired and I don't know if any of this makes any sense but I guess that I'm not getting a grade and you don't have to read it. I think I'll like this blogging thing.